I would lie if I said I knew the Family. I know I met them during school events and I remember precious Elina from last years Christmas Play where she played a little lost Angel.
We went this morning due to the boys asking me to take them. The Church where it was held was packed and it showed how loved this Family is by the Community.
I admit I think another reason for such a huge attendance is also due to nothing shaking up a Community more then the death of a child.
I would not have gone if it had not been for the boys. To walk into the church and see this tiny casket is just wrong on every level of my being.
Considering our family history it is even more so a hard pill to swallow when listening to the supposed gift it is that she is now in heaven. To hear she is happier now then she ever was... that this is a reason to celebrate and that the grieve felt now is only a sting that is a very short temporary event....
I sat there being grateful in the Families strong believe as I hope this will indeed carry them through this horrid time.
I can't imagine a greater pain, plus I would imagine it to last every minute, every hour, everyday until I took my last breath. If in temporary they mean life, then temporary would mean years and years unless my death came shortly after that of my child.
Connor and Alexander were very upset when we left. Connor said the pain if he lost Alexander would be way worse then a sting. He told me he would feel as if someone took out his heart....
So again I wonder how we can be so different in not seeing the supposed comfort?
My wish to this beautiful family is strength and peace for the coming years.
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