Oh where to start other then putting focus on the fact that Sandy, a precious friend to us, finally went to Heaven, the place he was looking forward to going to. It was a long journey for him and as he told me so many times in the past, he was ready.
You sure remember all my postings about the Morgans since the start of my blog. Our paths this past year were intertwined strongly and even thought we did not always see eye to eye in our believe he never gave up on me. He put up a huge fight in God's name and he was a true warrior and I always, always respected and loved him for it. I feel bad that his battle for me and him trying to keep my believe in God strong failed, BUT no matter in what I believe or not I will take comfort in the hope tonight that he is soaring up in heaven now looking down on us without the pain that had taken over his body here on Earth. I hope now that he was right and that I am wrong because if all he tried to tell me was true then he will be happy at last.
He got all he wished for in the end. He was with his beautiful wife and in his home! He might not have sat in his favorite recliner but he was in the same room as his recliner, and the last touch he felt before leaving was that of his lovely wife.
My heart is hurting today because I lost a friend, someone that was proud of me every step of the way. There were times when he was not always able to understand me, especially towards the end. I truly admired him, respected him and loved him. He knew how to build me up or give me hope when I did not feel up for the fight. I am truly sad that he was not able to show me a way back to God, but by gosh, he was the only one that never gave up! He was everything a Church should be like when it comes to trying to keep the sheep in a congregation and not let it loose! I guess the truth is that we were very well matched. He was as strong in his believes as I was strong in mine. Maybe the true issue was, as my husband so beautifully pointed out, is that I never was a sheep but just a Wolf in Sheep's Clothing ;) I know I am not good at following so maybe there really never was a chance ... ;)
So rest in peace, Sandy! Know that you were loved by us and that you will always be part of us! I will miss our talks so so much! I will miss getting letters in the mail and mostly you are the reason I am still working on this blog ... you told me each and every time we saw each other how much this blog mend to you and how proud you were of my writing. You even took the time to correct my grammar and spelling ... How can I write from here on out and not think of what you would think about this and what sentence structure should have been corrected.
I am going to stop now but here is what they boys want to say to you:
Alexander: 'Mr. Morgan, I hope you are feeling happy now that you are in heaven. I hope you like it there and that you are seeing some of your friends.'
Connor: 'Dear Mr. Morgan, I hope you are having a wonderful time in Heaven.'
Hugs,
R A C A
Anke, I am sorry for your loss. As always, I love to read your blog because it is just like being next to you, with the real you coming out, grammar imperfections notwithstanding :) I admire your ability to share unselfishly, and put your emotions out there. What a tribute to your friend. I guess I will have to pick up the slack, because I am confident God will use someone to help you find your way back, and we can't waste all the groundwork that your dear friend Sandy laid....
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