Now I have to add June 8, 2013, as a date that changed my life again and caused me pain I had never known before. I admit I was always afraid of the day I would have to face this but nothing could ever have prepared me.
June 8, 2013, just 4 days after my parents 58 Wedding Anniversary my so beloved Papa, my hero my strength passed away.
If you look at the title of this blog entry you might see he was 79 years old. A good age as we have been told many times that just does not ring true for me. 79 years and about 50 years to short for me!
I admit I have always been a stubborn child, tne youngest of 5 children who always voiced as a child into Adulthood how unfair I found that I would get the least amount of time with my parents due to the age disadvantage.
As a teenager I told with a huge confidence that I do not wish to outlive my parents as I knew then that their death would not be something I could deal with. So I lived life to the fullest and never feared death which I admit only changed when I had my own family. All of a sudden I was faced with fact that I have responsibilities and need to be there for others as well....
Now looking back I wish I had spend more time with them and had come to Germany more then once a year. Even in the hospital during my Dads last few days he told every nurse, doctor, patient how he needed to get better do he coud continue to fly to the US and see us there. Just three days more and he would have gotten a new Heart Valve.....
Tears are a constant companion during the night but I know that during the day I need to be strong for my Mom.
I hope everyone knows this kind of love that I received from my parents all my life!
Hugs,
Anke 💔
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